Friday, September 26, 2008

UGH... 10 Reasons I'm About To Lose It

It's been just one of those weeks. The kind where you want to crawl into bed and cry, and maybe stay in there for a MONTH! You know.... I 'm a believer in "enemy attacks", and let me tell you, I feel like I'm going down! Seriously, if one more ounce of stress is placed on me, I'm gonna crack.

Now here is where I start whining. Since I never write on this blog anymore, I probably don't have any readers, so I guess I'm safe to unload without any "sorry I'm so bitchy" disclaimers.

1. One of my kids got lice. YUCK. I have never had to deal with this before, but the school has had a huge problem with it this year. Well, my kiddo admits to sharing a hat with a friend, and a week later I'm still boiling brushes, washing sheets, combing hair, and gagging. Yes, I might have not mentioned I have a very weak stomach when it comes to bugs. The entire time I'm combing out the eggs (blughughgh) I'm making gagging noises. My kiddo started crying "mom, your freaking me out" Oh it is quite the ordeal.

2. The stress of not knowing what is going on with my husbands job is overwhelming. Daily we vacillate from thinking that everything is going to be OK, to oh crap... we are going to have to move into my parents basement. It's not like there is a ton of high paying financial jobs around here, so might we have a move in the near future???? However, with the economy so horrible, are there high paying financial jobs ANYWHERE? Do we just start over??? The sad thing about climbing corporate ladders? The long fall down.

3. Teen troubles. Anyone who has a strong willed 12 year old daughter understands that this SUCKS! I really need a Christian support group for teenage parents. Sadly the only class around is offered by families who's kids are still young enough that the parents are under the delusion they can avoid teenage attitudes by their sheer parenting perfection! Ah, I remember those days.... Reality bites.

4. At work, I'm surrounded by Christians who don't like God. Sounds weird, but it's true! They believe, but don't want anything to do with him. Now the big problem is that my life is CENTERED around him. This is really tearing me up from within. I don't want to ruin my witness by being too "preachy" (not actually preaching, just giving God the glory), however if I turn off my open reliance on him, at what point to I get sucked up into world? I am an opinionated Jesus freak... do I change to make the world more comfortable with me?????

5. Even though I only work 15 hours a week, it's enough to cause chaos in my house keeping routine and put a damper on my frugality. Plus my stupid oven broke. We've been eating conveniently which has added 5 pounds bringing me back into the 150's and making me console myself with Hershey's chocolate bars (I've ate 4 in the last 3 days).

6. I'm PMSing

7. Small towns piss me off (too long of a rant to even get into it)

8. We owe a ton of taxes, our savings is tied up in bank stock (that we bought at $23... now it's $3) and my kid needs braces. Lets add in a few car payments, our $800 a month health care insurance, and the possibility of Obama and we may just decide quit working and live off the state (I think we'd have far more $$$ that way). America has made it far more convenient to be a welfare slacker than to work your butt off (so you can pay for everyone elses food, health care, homes, etc).

9. My 6 year old son informed me a girl from his class was going to "hook him up" with her "hot" cousin. God help us.

10. My faith is being tested in every way. I feel so weak... like everything could be lost in a heartbeat. Like tightrope walking... with no safety net.


Halfmoon Girl said...

Oh Karlie, tough times. Your country's financial crisis is all over our news ,and I have been wondering how all of my American friends are doing. No one seems to be mentioning it. Keep to what you know is the Truth. Don't sway from it and keep bringing EVERY request to the Lord. THEN you will find that peace. I don't say that to thump you on the head, but to encourage you in what I know you already know. We were just talking the other night about spiritual warfare, and how sometimes there seems to be so much for Satan to torment us with- parenting, finances, stress, etc, etc, etc. Sounds like you are getting it from all sides. BUT you have a strong foundation- even though the storms may come, your house will stand.
Thanks for sharing, rant anytime, girl! We are here to support each other. I will be praying for you and your family.

ConservaChick said...

I'd say the financial crisis is only inconvenient for most American's at this point. Most of my friends are only griping about higher gas and food, but since my husband is a banker, we are at thre forefront of it all. Sadly these things do trickle down.

Thanks for your encouragment. God has been talking to me a lot about PEACE these last few days. Confirmation!

Anonymous said...

HUGS. You need a break my friend. Wish it was that easy hey. I hope you find some stability and finality with regards to your husband's job

Gayle said...

You've still got readers! I'm so sorry that you are struggling girl. That's all pretty big stuff that you're dealing with...all of it. Hang in there and keep us posted. Rant or not, we want to know it...

Emily said...

Misery loves company. I LOVE YOU. Feeling miserable, pms-y and angry tonight. :(

This is your blog, so I won't share my long rant...but I felt ya on...oh, most of your list.

oh, my one thought on the job thing? Think of this new job as a divine appt. He makes our paths straight. He set yours right along with these people who need the kind of REAL love for God that you have. REAL...not religious, not churchy...real.

and real people sometimes are grouchy and rant. :)

Hey, if this STUPID house ever can come hang out with me!

His Girl said...

Yah, girl... I am totally trackin' ya. Adding you to my prayer list for tomorrow morning.

hope you are able to find peace in the storm.